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Lately I’ve been feeling so damn incomplete, I don’t know what’s missing and it just makes me so fucking sad and frustrated. I don’t get why I’ve been so empty the past couple of weeks but the void is growing and I feel like I’m being fucking swallowed by a black hole.

"Sometimes the emptiness comes back and I’m afraid of all the things I would be willing to do just to feel again."
"Give me a bottle of liquor in a year or two and watch me still slip out your name through the tears."
"Sometimes I wish chain smoking these cigarettes would bring you back to me. But instead I’m left empty and disappointed like the way you left me."

 thinking about you still brings tears to my eyes and I know I say I don’t care but I also told you I didn’t care if we were to stop talking and look at me now. you were there for me at my worst and I’m so much better now, oh my god I would’ve made you proud. maybe one day we’ll meet again but I bet I’d still pretend I didn’t see you and keep walking the other way. I’m such an asshole and you always put up with it but I just want to make you laugh again because the sparkle in your eyes lit up my universe in my darkest days and for years now I’ve been left with a shade not even the brightest summer fucking days could light up. you were everything for me that year.

I don’t think I will ever be able to trust my dad again


Getting bad again for no reason after you’ve been so happy for a long time is literally one of the worst feelings ever

(via ankle-biiters)

i am not okay anymore

i need someone

Please do not fall for me. I will make you believe i love you and then I will leave.

I can feel us drifting and I can’t say I’m surprised.

I fucking hate you and how you left without saying why. I regret what happened between us because things didn’t turn out okay.
But it’s nights like these that remind me of all those times you were there to comfort me & make me smile. It’s nights like these that I sleep with your hoodie on & snuggle up into it pretending it’s you. & sadly, it’s nights like these that make me realize I don’t hate you, & I don’t regret anything. I’m learning to be grateful for having you, even if it was only for a little while; I gave you the best of me, & when you left you took it with you. Tonight is when I heal myself from the pain of your absence.

All I wanted was a Fucking reason as to why you suddenly walked out of my life. I miss you like shit but this is getting out of Hand

I don’t know how I’ll be able to focus on my exams when all I can ever do now is think of you and why you left without saying why or bye .

yay me for actually getting questions omg omg I’ve waited for like 3 years for this.